Sunday, February 22, 2009

The Time is NOW!!

Well, it's time! I start workin tomorrow!! I can't believe it is already here! For those who don't know. I'm going to be dancing at the Shoji Tabuchi Show!!! I am so ready! I'll have to admit, I'm a little anxious seeing as I haven't worked at all since Mattea was born, AND haven't danced in about two years! BUT! I've been workin my booty off to get back into shape and I am so ready!

I was in the show in 2001 and it was the BEST experiene I have had as a professional dancer! I am so thankful that I am still able to be a part of the show! I really though that after I had Mattea, I was done dancing. My body wasn't going to be the same, and the time would be too much! But, I sure got the bug again. So, just to see if I could, I went to auditions! I felt really good about it, but man was I winded after my two solos!! I wanted it BAD, but I wasn't getting my hopes up. I knew that time has done it's work on me!! But, I was sooooo excited when they called a couple of days later offering me the job!!

I have worked my butt of these last few weeks to get myself back into fighting shape. I'm not quite there yet, but I'm close! I'm sure I'm goin to lose quite a bit more during rehearsals!!

I am so ready for the challenges that are ahead! It is going to be the best! Plus, I can't wait to Taiko!!!!!!

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Thankful Thursday



Okay, so I'm going to steal this one from Jami. I think it is a great idea to remind ourselves of all we have to be thankful for......especially in these uncertain times. So, here goes!!!!!!

I am thankful for my husband! He is the best friend and father anyone could ask for! He puts up with me and all my craziness!!

I am thankful for my daughter! She has changed my life in so many ways. Watching her grow is the most amazing and rewarding experience!!

My last one for today is
I am thankful for my talents and abilities. I am going to be starting my new job on Monday dancing in a show. I am so glad that I am going to be able to put my love for dance to good use again!!! All the hours and hard work I put into training all those years have paid off!! I get to do what I love to do every day and get paid for it!! That in turn, is helping our family become more secure financially!

Now that was fun! We all need to remember to be Thankful!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Freak me OUT!!

So, this morning at about 7:30 am our carbon monoxide detector started going off!! Mattea and I were sound asleep. Needless to say, it was about the worst way to wake up!!

I had no idea what to do!! John had just left to work, so I called him to see what the heck I needed to do. I opened the door to air the house out and took Mattea out to the car! It wouldn't stop going off, so I called the fire department! Yes, i'm that person!!! At first, just a fire SUV pulled up, so I thought it wouldn't be too big of a deal!!......BUT THEN.... a huge engine showed up!! I was a little embarassed!! They said it was probably from the fireplace. So, we can't have a fire until John can clean the chimey......

I guess I totally over reacted....but I had no idea what to do!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Not Sleeping....

Man! This not being able to sleep thing is getting pretty old!! I get really tired, but when I try to go to sleep, I can't turn my brain off!! It's kinda crazy! I have like the worst ADD I swear! I can't hold still to save my life. John gets annoyed because I'm always shaking my leg or something while I'm laying in bed!! Last week it was so bad that I had one of the worst anxiety attacks I have had in a long time.

It was five in the morning and I still wasn't sleeping and Mattea woke up and was crying and I just didn't know what to do. I know it sounds silly, but at that moment I was so overwhelmed....... Iwas crying un controllably and poor little Mattea is just wrapping her arms around me. It's like she knew I needed her to calm down. She just hugged me.......It's amazing what the hug of your child can do to you!

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed right now. I'm getting ready to go back to work and I haven't worked since before Mattea was born. I'm going to be dancing again which is so awesome. But with that comes the responsibility of getting back into shape. John says I'm doing good and he can really tell a difference, and I believe him........It's just at times I see myself as this fat cow and there is no way they are going to want me to be up on their stage!!!!! I still struggle with the fact that I got so out of control with my weight a few years ago. I was VERY depressed and food was my comfort. Now that I am getting myself back to my old self........it is a little terrifying. I'm so scared I will fail......somehow.........

Things are going so well right now. John is doing great with work, Mattea is healthy, and I'm going to dance again.......just somehow.......I keep waiting for the ball to drop.......for something to let me know that it's not all good............

Okay, I need to quit thinking and go to sleep.......this thinking is not too good for me at the moment!

Mattea Peed on the Potty!

So, yesterday, Mattea went pee on the potty by herself!!! I told her we needed to go change her diaper and she went running into the bathroom. I asked if she needed to go potty and she lifted up the toilet seat! So, I took off her diaper and put her on the toilet. She just sat there for a couple minutes then wanted off. But, about an hour later when John got home, she did the same thing but this time.......SHE WENT PEE!!! I can't believe she is getting big enough to pee on the potty! I'm sure it will still be a while till she is all the way trained, but we are starting off on the right foot!! I'm so proud of you baby!!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Cu-Oh wish me!!

So, Mattea and I had a sleepover with Kadan and Brooklyn last night! It was so much fun! Kami was going to get surgery on her herniated belly button this morning! Fun stuff! Kadan wasn't feeling too well, so he just layed on the couch and watched Shrek! Mattea and Brooklyn were busy having a love hate relationship! They would be playing good together, then BAM! One of them was ticked! It's funny watching them interact with eachother!

Needless to say, between my daughter who has decided to no longer sleep, and Kadan who didn't feel well, I didn't sleep too much. But, it was still fun! In the middle of the night, Kadan woke up and was wandering around the living room. I said "Kadan, what's wrong buddy?" "I just want you to cu-oh wish me Aunt Kara!" He is sooooo sweet! I love his cuddles! So, Kadan, Mattea, and I all cuddled on the couch......yea, didn't sleep too much!! But, it is so worth it for those kids!

Now if Mattea will just decide to sleep again I will be very thankful! So, we need to work on that!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I am so blessed!

Well, it's Sunday, and as always we went to Church! I am so blessed to have found a Church family as amazing as Woodland Hills Family Church. Every week is so uplifting and amazing. Our worship team is the best! It's a rare thing when I DON"T cry during worship! There is nothing better than combining our love for God with music. Ted B. sure knows how to find the right songs and fit to keep it going!!

Today was the last installment of Fireproof. Fireproof your Future! This has been an amazing series and what a way to end it! Ted was great at sending the message of the importance of Securing our Family's place in Heaven.

I am so thankful for my family and all that God has given to us. I know that He is the way. He is the light, the love, and the truth. Amen!!!

Here we go!

Well, I'm gettin this blog thing goin thanks to my amazing best friend Jamilyn! I guess she thought I needed a kickstart, so she set it up for me!!! Thanks buddy!